h&m

orange/red/navy

new dressssses, £20 for three. they're from h&m but they're pretty similar to the AA u-neck, just without the back dip. i'm verrrr happy. although i wish they had grey, green or a lighter blue. they do black as well, but i already have my AA one.

sorry for being kind of absent, i've been rushing around doing a lot of stuff, and also going out a lot... i actually have a birthday thing today so this is a really quick post.

update number 2

floral playsuit/romper, h&m. this is a sort of unflattering picture, but i'm too tired to put it on and take more.

vest, h&m. didn't enjoy my face in this one, and i doubt anyone else would've either..

same vest, tucked into the back of my shorts.

what i wore yesterday to go shopping. then to the club for sunbathing and samosas for dinner

wednesday nights wanchai - ladies night, free champagne at carnegies.

thursday night LKF - ladies night, free cosmopolitans at 97

friday night wanchai - beer night at carnegies, $10 coronas. which translates to 80p.

saturday night wanchai - jager night at carnegies - $10 shots, $30 bombs.

this is where my liver goes to die. also, i bumped into a bunch of people from high school, and one of them, mahira, was telling me that on wednesdays there's a place where you go in and drink beer, but you can't pee or leave otherwise you have to pay or something along those lines. sounded delightful.

gonna have lunch with my grandpa and cousin vera today. i love dimsum.

purchases and whatnot

this is going to be mostly image-based, as a warning.

so last night as i was waiting for justin to turn up and have drinks with me i did a spot of shopping in wanchai's various cheap shoe shops and chain stores. i didn't photograph everything i bought; i bought two pairs of sheer patterned tights, lace pop socks, a black h&m skirt and underwear that i couldn't be bothered to take decent photos of...i'm lazy on holiday.

what i wore to go out.

H&M olive green button-up top

H&M black shirt

TOPSHOP diamante studded shorts

CONVERSE black sneakers

silver smiley face ring & black multi-loop ring

papa cheung took me to page one and i got these three; i'm saving the stephen king for when i've finished reading all the books in my dad's house.

red, blue and green tie-dye maxi dress from maple. i've been looking for a vest-top kind of maxi dress, as all the ones i have are strappy.

silver stackable rings, h&m

revlon nail polishes; 917 plum seduction & 791 midnight affair

BLACKOUT

UNKNOWN black long-sleeved shirt

H&M black shirt

TOPSHOP black velvet leggings

TOPSHOP gunmetal pumps

wahey. i'm rather busy these days and i do apologise for the distinct lack of anything recently.

1:27

being crushed there's a deadweightdeadhate sitting on my chest hitting me where it hurts and i am being crushed. and i can't get up because i'm tied to all of you and you drag me down into the slime. although i don't mean to blame any of you for this deadhate because i criticise and destroy myself piece by piece without any help at all because i can because i can because i can't fucking move from this i can't move away from it.

consumed by an enormous hound of guilt i scream inside, but i can't have you hear me won't have you hear my thoughts. bringing myself to a point where i can't disappoint and then i do and so i lose again. this isn't even a game anymore but i still fucking lose time after time and i'm starting to believe that i won't ever get to winning. not even a top ten but surely enough that would be worse. i don't want to be an almost. i don't want to be a not quite. i want to be exceptional, or truly disgraceful because to be competent or adequate merely leads to my mediocrity. my mediocre life and my mediocre mind and my mediocre existence. and i don't ever want that.

ink

LK BENNETT navy striped cardigan

H&M black shirt

H&M grey skirt

TOPSHOP gunmetal flats

PRIMARK brown belt

excuse the slightly disgruntled face. i got my tattoo quotes today with george, and it'll be around £30 for my two little symbols. which is really quite good. i'm getting the sign of the deathly hallows on the left ankle - it's obvious why - and the infinity symbol on the right ankle. george and i are both getting it because i love her long time. that's all i have time for today. s2 exam tomorrow. bricking it ever so slightly.

stumbleuponsleeptumblrexaminations

these four things are the reasons i've not been a terribly active blogger. also the fact that i have been spending most of my waking hours in the library. i go to college until 4 or so, then to the library until 8, which is when it shuts. and then i go home. it's been a rather mundane repertoire, but one that is to be performed until my exams are over.

i am also finding myself more and more inclined towards curling up in a corner and staring at the wall. i don't particularly want to go anywhere, or do anything lately. perhaps i'm just tired. now if only a good night's sleep would cure me. not that it's terribly achievable, sleep evades me.