i had ONE bloody lesson today which ended at 9:50 then i did NOTHING until 2:45.
and i am exhausted. this makes absolutely no sense. and i just watched the diary of anne frank and now i'm morose. and i want nothing more than to lie on a beach somewhere in a red bikini with a friend and a six-pack of beer. and i miss the easy parts. today, i literally got slapped in the face with the realization that if i want to go to oxford, i have so much work to do just to be the same as everyone else. and then i have to do more work, if only to be a little bit better. i am painfully aware that i should've tried so much harder. the tension headache that has been irritating me for a month is getting worse and sometimes, i can't breathe.
joshua radin, winter
