the warden makes house calls.

i'm so tired. i've done no revision for almost a week now. i should start. my exams are on monday onwards until thursday. i don't want to do them, but i don't want to fail either. i feel like cheese puffs, or whirls, or something. cheesy puffy corn baked produucts
i don't know. my fingers hurt from studding. i'm going out with george and rachel to see SATC2 for pootle's birthday. SJP was pretty much the only one in a decent dress at the premiere - Halston Heritage always looks good on her. i'm excited for the dresses. mm watching girl, interrupted again and daisy's just hung herself. i love this film.



WHY DOES MY HEART GO ON BEATING, WHY DO THESE EYES OF MINE CRY. DON'T THEY KNOW IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD, IT ENDED WHEN YOU SAID GOODBYE.

BEERGARDEN

i look like i've got a bum. yesireee





i swear i had my top on, that was just a funny angle. today has been wonderful. george has the best garden for everything because it's so massive.

it's henry's birthdayyyy today :)




i miss this. my size 10 pants give melovehandlessssss. guh i need to stop nomming foodz



fuck i've gained three inches, waist and hips. that's horrific

losing my religion

vikipants and georgepants

every whisper
of every waking hour I'm
choosing my confessions
trying to keep an eye on you
like a hurt lost and blinded fool

hmm. i think that everything is alright at the moment. things are okay and i don't feel bad inside. i don't feel worthless anymore, and i don't know why, but i'm glad for it. i have maths homework to do and an english cw piece to polish for friday, but that's okay. perhaps this is some kind of momentary happiness brought on by the weather, or perhaps i've had one of those realizations without even realizing. if that makes sense. i still miss how i was when i was a lot younger. maybe 8. but i was a spoilt bitch at 8. one of those precocious know-it-all kids who made you want to punch them in the face. after everything, i think i'm better. as better as i'm going to get by myself. and that's okay.