happy birthday to me

god i'm sad.
today will be a good day.

TETRIS!

ibrahim makes shirts & i decided to commission one. coming up are pacman + space invaders
:D

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=102844&id=535546646

i'm in a much better mood having purchased cheap cds and a bag of fruit.

i'm not sure if i feel better or not

it seems to go on and off. i'm going to go meet ibrahim in like, twenty minutes to pick up my shirt, but in the meantime i'm watching scrubs, and juno. god i love the hamburger phone. and su chin.
last night i didn't sleep until like, three or four maybe? which of course is total idiocy. not that it matters because i didn't get a phone call this morning and therefore means i'll be pissed off most of today. so i guess i'm going to go out, meet ibs, buy beer, come home, drink beer and pass out. this is all total bullshit.
not sure why i continue to mutilate myself like this.

"BUT IT'S BREAKFAST FOR SUPPER"

i miss the way your hair fell in your eyes and how you used to hold me.

2:39

i've never felt so exhilarated and yet felt so much like shit before in my life.
why am i even awake?

we're gonna rock on to electric avenue

1. Show us the inside of something cute:
i'm holding in the urge to post a picture of cat innards.
errrrrrrrrrr i really have no idea.

2. What’s the last home cooking you had?
er. last night, i suppose. it wasn't very exciting really. i actually can't even remember what i ate. ahhhh no i ate fish and veg. how exhilarating.

3. What do you miss?
childhood, summer and the ice cream man

4. What makes you laugh often?
www.fmylife.com, and george.

5. What’s your favorite word?
knob. or straight.

6. What are you trying to quit?
nothin' at all. i like cigarettes :D

george; "stupid men"
i concur.

7. What’s your favorite commercial right now?
the nandos advert on spotify.
on tv, the one where that fat bloke goes "WONGA"

8. Whose style do you dig?
hers :)

9. Link to a great blog you’ve discovered lately…
errrrr hold on.
i found this one earlier today while poking through the forums.

10. What’s the last craft you made?
that's a good question. i haven't made anything in ages. perhaps my notebooks covers for college.

11. A photo of the last happy mail you got:
got a birthday card from my dad's best friend with le boook voucher
:)



12. Something you’ve got lately?
black skirt from h&m which made me a happy bunny.
the photo from the pervious blog, i can't be bothered to repost.

13. What are you looking forward to?
my gender reassignment surgery.
nah, just the birthday and the beer

14. Post a recent snapshot of you:
me and george like to post stupid pictures of ourselves on the internet :)


george:"i just look like your retard friend"

i won't reply to that.

15. Favorite movie of all time?
it's a tossup between forrest gump and the breakfast club. and every bruce lee movie. hmm.

16. Something you’re working on right now?
this blog? er, i might do some work, or i might just make more new notebook covers.

17. If a movie were made about you, who would play you?
i want to say russell howard. but we look nothing alike.
:[

18. What gives you goosebumps?
errr. KEN LEEEEEEEEE, IB LIBBU DIBBU DOW CHUUU


i love her.

19. Share a new obsession:
DARRELL!



20. What’s the meaning of your life?
watching really pointless shit on youtube, obviously. the meaning of my life is to youtube.

just woke up

because of a phone call. if it hadn't been for that, i would've quite willingly slept til two. i went to bed late last night - i was considering staying up all night but i had no-one to do it with except alex and i didn't want to distract her from work. ainsley found out his lecture wasn't cancelled so he had to go away; beckyy got tired and she went to sleep as well. so i ended up browsing the internet for total bullshit trying not to sleep so i wouldn't think about the things i want to do; and know i can't.

i have two plans for this evening and i doubt i'll attend either. i feel fucking terrible.

so everything was kind of chill

+ now you've turned everything upside down again. because you would condescend to speak to me. i don't know what to do so i'm going on feelings. which, in hindsight, is a damn fool thing to do. need a drink. or a cigarette. can't have either because i still live with my mother. what to do but sigh and resign myself to a long wait before anything will be alright again.



lookbook is helpful when i'm bored, although i seem to spend more time on the forums as opposed to perusing actual looks. ah well.

fp

it's wednesday and i really am quite tired - being ill is SO much fun. not. i was planning on going to waterstone's to spend some book vouchers, but ended up sitting on the hill with andrew and abusing him. fun times. hopefully i won't still be this sick on saturday - drunk and ill is never a combination. i should start my work but i'm seriously unmotivated. i can never see the point in doing my work first. i know this is a bad approach to things, but i'm just too lazy to do this sort of thing. my half-term grades are probably horrific. but i really don't care at all.

life is strange at the moment - not sure where i am with some people, and just not sure of some people. i'd like to be certain about how i feel about situations, but i never am. perhaps this is part of a 'learning experience.' or not. i'm sitting here listening to 'pour some sugar on me' and wondering whether i'm supposed to feel like this. nonetheless.

'love is like a bomb baby come and get it on'