you have stolen my heart

and from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
one good stretch before our hibernation
our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well


i'm too headachey to do anything proper so i'm just giving you some from the inspiration folder.



charlie le mindu's spring 2011 hair show. i loved this.



wedding cupcakes <3 i wouldn't even want to eat these cuz they're so pretty.



i don't even remember where this is from but it is incredible.



chun li cosplay - this is the cutest thing i've ever seen.



i'd love to be able to do something like this. i don't have the right facial structure for this. or the skintone.

the prophet armed

today's makeup.
eyebrows;
grazer refillable auto eyebrow in black.

eyes;
collection 2000 liquid eyeliner.
clinique mascara in 01, black.
eyeshadow palette i bought in debenhams - pink, purple, dark gray.

face;
some strange concealer for a couple of breakouts.



INSPIRATION FOLDER.

draw in light



i absolutely love this. the sections, the colour, the draping of the fabric. just love it. particularly love the ripped white thigh length leggings.


ban.do


these are from ban.do's black label collection, and they are just breathtaking. i've always wanted to try insane headgear - unfortunately for me these are well out of my price range. beautiful.



did a manicure. cnd's silver chrome & revlon's vixen. with go with a nautical theme for saturday - wearing my sailor dress to talia's 18th. but i also like black + silver. i'm having a tips phase. might work with that faux konad my mum got me.




STALIN; isaac deutscher.
ESSENTIAL WORKS OF LENIN; lenin
HISTORY OF THE RUSSIAN REVOLUTION; leon trotsky
THE PROPHET ARMED, THE PROPHET UNARMED, THE PROPHET OUTCAST; isaac deutscher.

i'm pretty sure this is my birthday present from my dad... it's nice of him though. he always sends me books on random occasions, and these are helpful towards my russian revolution exam.

theme; songs to do with blood

blood on my hands; the king blues.
drain the blood; the distillers
the blood; the cure
the blood is love; qotsa
we suck young blood; radiohead

the place became full of a watchful intentness now; for when other things sank brooding to sleep the heath appeared slowly to awake and listen

i'm going to start reading the return of the native by hardy. i have a crapload of reading for college anyway but i haven't read anything for pleasure in a while. i'm kind of ill at the moment, and living at george's since my mum's in spain.

i've generally been tired lately. i sleep a lot and try not to think too much. alone time is somewhat detrimental to my sanity at the moment. i want to go out to sea and drift. i can't find the normal stream of consciousness i'm usually in and my head feels like it's going to explode. i should go down a bottle of painkillers. or drink some water.

what we think creates the world around us.

sylvain sylvain; new york dolls


alain delon


heath ledger


just some things from my photos folder. such beautiful men. and how time ravages us.



zara, sept '10 collection.

i love this. it's not so much a lack of structure as carefully coiffed cloth. and the slouchyness of the whole thing makes me wish i was 5'9 and thin enough for this not to look like i'm trying to hide under it.



what i look like today.

music;;

i thought you said summer is going to take the pain away; hello saferide
heartbreaker; pat benetar
hummingbird; born ruffians
murder by numbers; the police
blinking pigs; little dragon

white vinegar

is how you get rid of wallpaper moulddddddddd.

i've been in the midst of an awakening. i will get back on track with things. eventually.

oh and my nails look like this.

calidore

been reading some john keats lately. all this work for college is stressing me out. i ate a fuckload of bread today so that's going to come back to me in any number of horrible ways. going to power plate on tuesday afternoon, but i must take up running. it's constantly raining now and i don't like the idea of running in the rain because i might slip, fall and land on a slug/worm and that would be too disgusting to imagine. i feel like this year will be different in a weird way but i don't really want to get too much into thinking. i've been super panicky lately and i don't know what's going on.

adolescent sex - japan
brown eyes - lady gaga
infinity - the xx
body in a box - city and colour

today, i spent moooolah

purchases;
-black buckled heels
-grey men's knit with elbow patches, which i love.
-black tee with breast pockets
-two pairs of polka dot sheer black tights, one small polka dots, one large.
-grey legwarmers; i've pondered these for a while and i decided to buy some.


pictures of other things later. i'm very tired from reading. so far i've chowed down 21 books which isn't a lot considering how long i've been here. i discounted a few trashy chick lit novels, but i'm nowhere near what i want/need to read. a lot of things i've read are on the reading for pleasure book list from college, but i am yet to delve into the gothic reading list. and also the books i took from the english cupboard. there's about 14 and i must read 10, if not all of them. i MUST read wuthering heights and complete a reading log, and i have some maths work from krysia i should try and get to grips with. history, have to read the french revolution book, and i also have one from dad. should start planning essay for c/w. i'm dropping chemistry faster than the speed of light so it's all good in that area.

i reckon i'll read about 60 books this summer, if not more. hopefully more. i need to immerse myself in literature sooner rather than later.