stop being you. please.

fuckety fuckety fuck you make me nervous. you make me so goddamn nervous i could just throw up. alll over the floor. shit. i just want to curl up in a ball and scream. today has been such a shitpile of a day and it's not getting much better. perhaps i'm just extra hormonal or perhaps i just don't want to do this anymore. my resits start next friday and i can't breathe. just can't do it. i just want to put my headphones in and put some john lennon on and lie in grass with a picnic blanket and a glass of pink lemonade. actually, that's bullshit. i want to go back to two summers ago and stay there forever. and sit on repulse bay beach and drink beers and party until 5 am in wanchai. and i want fishball noodles in aberdeen and i want stanley market and i want monique's house in fanling and i want 7-11 and i want red taxis and i want my dad. and i can't have any of that here and it's killing me.

revised today.

season 8 finale. i cried a bit. and i don't care how lame i sound.



i wish i still had this lollipop. it was superrrr yummy

mostly chemistry. my resit is next friday and i'm kind of shitting it. they seemed so far away, and now they're next friday. fuckin' jesus. then i watched two hours of chinese soaps with my mommerz. and i should have been asleep at least an hour, if not more ago. frick on a stick.

total eclipse of the heart

hi, i miss you.



added gold/neutral buttons instead of the shoelace that was holding the deep cut in the front together. i'll have to shred around it really carefully. when it finally gets summery i'm breaking these shirts out with denim shorts and flipflops. or for the beach. idk, they're kind of useful. i slouch around my house in the orange one.



isn't this so cute? i have completely the wrong skintone for pastel shades, but i can admire from afar. c2 mock tomorrow. i have to do so much better in this one.

music videos.

okay. beyonce's new video 'why don't you love me' is AMAZING. shoes = LAAAAAAHHHHHHHVVVVVVVVVVVVVV. they are all so beautiful. nom nom nom.

conversely, miley's new video is like a bad lady gaga britney mashup.

aiiiiii SLEEPZ

sunny, thank you for the sunshine bouquet

old make-up shot



i cut the waist off a pair of old denim cutoffs that have gotten so frayed and ripped they're basically rags. idk.



i made the top from an old dress that was super ripped at the bottom, so i cut off the worst of the tearing and sewed up the bottom layers and it's now just a little corset top thing. it really holds everything in, even though it's made of such a delicate fabric.

i'm happy today.

watching the inbetweeners at 3am

mmm.

this is mostly going to be a post about attractive men.




he's just so frickin' cute. and i hate strawbery milk..



OMNOMNOMNOMNOM



i'm not even much of an mcr fan anymore, but he's too nommy to ignore



wxijcowrelvkmer he's all smouldering and stuff



need i say more? he could be a creepy scissoring maniac and he's still pretty. or as some crazy hatter. which i find worryingly attractive..


PATRICE.


there's not going to be much else to this post, if i'm honest.

grey's anatomy

I'm going to say this once. And then I am not going to say it again. I'm not broken. I'm not some psychodrama. My lack in interest in not having a child is not some pathology that you can pat yourself on the back for having diagnosed. I like my life. I like it the way it is and I don't want it to change. I thought I liked it with you in it. I hope I am not wrong.


ohh arizona.





i bought new sandals from primark - two quid and they're quite nice. the middle strap is braided.
i'm in a shredding frenzy once again.


started this today; primark men's gray shirt, s.



orange shredded tee - unfinished, but my favourite. BSX.



turquoise shredded tee - also unfinished, but i don't like this one so much - i unraveled the whole hem instead of doing it in sections, so it's formed strange rope-like strands. also BSX



my first go at a shredded tee - a top i didn't really like the fit of, but still liked the design. i had to pick around the seashell design as it was that imprinted shiny foil stuff, but i quite like it. i think i've shredded more of it since this picture.


and i'm ordering a fuckload of studs and safety pins. i might make one of those safety pin cross tshirts, they look kind of amazing.

or this.

and this caught my eye when i was surfin' the web; knitgraffiti. probably the prettiest graffiti ever..